My novel is finished. My birthday is finished. This morning my body decided it was finished. It simply crashed. My body didn’t want to do anything I wanted it to do.
I texted my friend in Africa and told her I’ve been going in circles with nothing accomplished today.
My nun friend from Sierra Leone texted me back:
“Even in circles something is done.”
Whoa! Sounded like a Zen Master. I took a deep breath, resigned that my body had the right to take a break. It over rode my desires. It shut me down. It’s got a grip that won’t let go and so I befriended it. What else can you do?
It’s amazing that we women, American women in particular, feel we cannot stop for anything but our own personal day-to-day agendas, many of which we have no control over. Unless, of course we come down with the flu. I distinctly remember when my own children were growing up I looked forward to my annual sinus infection because it gave me an excuse to be a slacker for a week. That’s if you can be a slacker with five children.
Now that I look back at that, I continue to be astounded that we women feel pressured to perform, even out perform, to get it right, to get it perfect … whatever “it” is … to pick up kids, to work in the marketplace, to volunteer if you’re not holding down a full-time job. We never feel comfortable to take down time. It’s like we have this insidious virus inside us that propels us into this constant state of frenzy.
One of my problems is I have a desk littered with things I need to do. Contacts to contact, bunches of stuff to put away, file (yes, I still file a few things), including a Wonder Woman notebook to help me think I can do it all. And you notice in the picture she is sitting right next to St. Jude.
On the back of the St. Jude card it says: “when one seems to be deprived of all visible help….” St. Jude inspired Danny Thomas early in his career and then Thomas built St. Jude’s Children’s Hospital in gratitude. If it was good enough for Danny Thomas …. And then we all know about Wonder Woman. (Should I have switched that around?) St. Jude has been around longer than Wonder Woman.
It all goes back to what it is that gives us peace in our minds, encourages us to feel optimistic and grateful. What about you?
What do you do to help you through the flattened days?